Restless... Because You Were Made For More | FaithGateway
Check out this link above. And this I'm combining with some teachings i got a week ago from Charles Stanley about God's guidance...
I prayed and told God I will kill off some dreams, letting them completely lose. Some dreams that are on themselves very cute, but might not based on God's plan (that I know).
One is for example: getting a triplet. I actually had a dream years ago, I was still in high-school, that I had a triplet boys and I was super tired and super happy. I was in a huge bed resting with my 3 newborns in my arms. Then my husband came into the room, the father of the kids. He was a guy I was in love with in high-school. A couple of years ago I began to fancy this sleeping dream into a day dream, to have 3 boys, while I always wanted daughters. But come on! it's nice, but it was a dream that I had. I always dream about having babies when I'm in love with someone. Like really in love.
I'm killing off this dream and let God fill in the blanks.
One dream I killed off a while back already was to one day marry a carpenter. It's just that I wanted to marry someone super handy and make stuff together. My wish to marry a captain is still active, but I had yet another dream (not being in love or anything) that I might end up with a business man. And in the dream I thought: So this is it. I really love this guy and he is totally not my type. But here I am, living a city live again, being totally content, even being a mother to his kid. He had a blond 2 year old boy. We were driving in his Porsche in some business/industrial area and he was wearing very expensive design clothes, like these Italian suits (not my cup of tea) but I watched him and only felt a deep love for this man, who was darkblond/reddish Caucasian. (again, no.) The only thing I took out of this dream was that I might end up with someone God guides me to and I end up loving anyway, that I normally would not fancy at all. But the fact is that I have always fallen in love with guys that are totally not my types and the ones who did have the looks were so shallow that I lost interest immediately.
But drifting off... my point is when I kill off some dreams I have, I allow God to refill with His reality for my life which is very much cooler then my dreams. I have had dreams come true and then I still feel restless, knowing that it was what I wanted all along. But not feeling all that super satisfied with it. So then...why so intensely hold on to my dreams? they might come true, but even if they did, i was not all that content. Thing is: when it is God's dream that is being realized, I am very content and excited because it feels so RIGHT. If totally FITS. I taste and see that it is good. That's why I look forward to see God making things real.
Meanwhile I scandisk for sins that hinder, I try to have more a prayer life, I obey him and try to stay 1 with Him by refocussing and try not to get too distracted. That is my weakness: getting distracted and filling my days with social life that are not really a priority.
Please Lord, guide all of my days, make my schedules.
