Jan 26, 2014

Restless...

Restless... Because You Were Made For More | FaithGateway

Check out this link above.  And this I'm combining with some teachings i got a week ago from Charles Stanley about God's guidance...

I prayed and told God I will kill off some dreams, letting them completely lose.  Some dreams that are on themselves very cute, but might not based on God's plan (that I know).

One is for example:  getting a triplet. I actually had a dream years ago, I was still in high-school, that I had a triplet boys and I was super tired and super happy. I was in a huge bed resting with my 3 newborns in my arms. Then my husband came into the room, the father of the kids. He was a guy I was in love with in high-school. A couple of years ago I began to fancy this sleeping dream into a day dream, to have 3 boys, while I always wanted daughters. But come on! it's nice, but it was a dream that I had. I always dream about having babies when I'm in love with someone. Like really in love.

I'm killing off this dream and let God fill in the blanks.



One dream I killed off a while back already was to one day marry a carpenter. It's just that I wanted to marry someone super handy and make stuff together.  My wish to marry a captain is still active, but I had yet another dream (not being in love or anything) that I might end up with a business man. And in the dream I thought: So this is it. I really love this guy and he is totally not my type. But here I am, living a city live again, being totally content, even being a mother to his kid. He had a blond 2 year old boy. We were driving in his Porsche in some business/industrial area and he  was wearing very expensive design clothes, like these Italian suits (not my cup of tea) but I watched him and only felt a deep love for this man, who was darkblond/reddish Caucasian. (again, no.) The only thing I took out of this dream was that I might end up with someone God guides me to and I end up loving anyway, that I normally would not fancy at all. But the fact is that I have always fallen in love with guys that are totally not my types and the ones who did have the looks were so shallow that I lost interest immediately.



But drifting off... my point is when I kill off some dreams I have, I allow God to refill with His reality for my life which is very much cooler then my dreams. I have had dreams come true and then I still feel restless, knowing that it was what I wanted all along. But not feeling all that super satisfied with it. So then...why so intensely hold on to my dreams? they might come true, but even if they did, i was not all that content. Thing is: when it is God's dream that is being realized, I am very content and excited because it feels so RIGHT. If totally FITS. I taste and see that it is good. That's why I look forward to see God making things real.

Meanwhile I scandisk for sins that hinder, I try to have more a prayer life, I obey him and try to stay 1 with Him by refocussing and try not to get too distracted. That is my weakness: getting distracted and filling my days with social life that are not really a priority.



Please Lord, guide all of my days, make my schedules.












Jan 2, 2014

How we control

Normally visions or drams that are big stuff you ask if it is God's will. But I should also ask God's will for like everything, really. 
We still control most of our lives. And then we wonder why we still are at the same stage in life?

Check out the story of the man God called 'fool'. If God calls you a fool, you are really in trouble because God normally doesn't call people names like that.
 

The Parable of the Rich Fool (Luke 12. NIV)

13 Someone in the crowd said to him, “Teacher, tell my brother to divide the inheritance with me.”
14 Jesus replied, “Man, who appointed me a judge or an arbiter between you?” 15 Then he said to them, “Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; life does not consist in an abundance of possessions.”
16 And he told them this parable: “The ground of a certain rich man yielded an abundant harvest. 17 He thought to himself, ‘What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.’
18 “Then he said, ‘This is what I’ll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store my surplus grain. 19 And I’ll say to myself, “You have plenty of grain laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry.”’
20 “But God said to him, ‘You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?’
21 “This is how it will be with whoever stores up things for themselves but is not rich toward God.”
 
The rich man God called the fool actually had exactly everything the way he wanted it to be. He thought he had it made. He had everything he worked hard for. Actually, he was taking decisions in life totally without considering God. He had no need and no space for God. God wasn't necessary in the process of things in his life.  He was rich but not rich toward God.
Although... that same life he had can be gone that same night.
Next to that: there is still sooo much insight about God to discover. Sometimes we get so close, and this is when you feel rich. When the Holy Spirit illuminates you. 

Anything in  my life that hinders me from relying upon, thrusting and obeying God becomes a god in my life. Now you know what slows you down or holds you back or makes you bored with your christian life. But anything that actually makes me need to rely more upon him, thrust him even more and make me obey Him more are fine. They work, because God is involved.
I just need to make a list of things God can require of me to give up. He knows what works best for me.

I think God will continue to lighten my path and make me stronger and move me towards His plans. I believe so. I'm excited for this and what I DO like about a beginning of a new year is that you can start out well. In the course of the year it goes backwards again, but at least you start out well, let's see how far in this year we can take it.